Felix Mendelssohn - Mamula Moon (Hawaiian Negaraku)..

It's amazing how much this song which was recorded 10 years before our country got independance sounds so much like Negaraku, our national anthem. [Read more..]

"Mamula Moon" by Felix Mendelssohn
one day i walked along
a moonlit island shore
and soon i heard a song
i never heard before

i said who can it be
to sing so tenderly
and saw a dust he made
with lonely serenade

mamula moon
shine high above the southern sea
and like my love
say form again to me

we said goodbye
beside the blue lagoon
alone am i
with you mamula moon

i waved my hand
the grey ship sailed across the bay
on golden sand
that might i melt to pray

that i might see
my love returning soon
still true to me
and you mamula moon

I searched the lyrics over the net but I had no luck. So, I typed the lyrics myself while I was listening to it. If you guys wanna download the mp3, click [here].

Lina's 23rd birthday party..

i was surposed to have an interview this weekend, but it was postponed.. infact, it's gonna be held in kedah on tuesday. but anyway, wouldn't want to waste my rm30 bus ticket to kl for nothing.. so, i came down and meet up some frens in cyberia.

lina's bday was today (16th September), and she didnt plan anything during the day since some of her frens got classes and exams. well, she was free and decided to come down to pudu pick me up once i arrived which was nearly at 5pm. we rode the bus together back to cyberjaya, went up to her new condo at a different block, bathed and waited for others to arrive before we head to the multi-cuisine restoran 'tepi jalan' William (yeah, finally we knew his name!).

let me recap who was there for lina's bday dinner.
1. lina (besday gurl turned 23)
2. ME (all the way from kedah..)
3. ida (cik Gigi Besi)
4. yat (salam kenal2.. huhu)
5. ida (dgn her new cute pet, ala2 flying fox.)
6. syazwan (bf nurul.. salam kenal2 gak weih)
7. nurul (gf syazwan)
8. mai
9. mohamad (iranian guy)

mcm besa la, kitorang x dpt nk ingat apa yg kitorang order coz nama2 semua pelik2.. janji, sedap n berbaloi! thx byk2 lina for belanja us all, kenyang n puas hati dinner mlm tuh! pehtu, hehe.. sampai je kat keta, mai dgn budak2 lain spray lina cam org giler dgn spray yg melekat2 tuh.. abih melekat kat baju, huhu.. semua org pun kena, tp mohamad le ganaz, siap spray dlm spender aku.. siot :P mueheheh.. tp sronok sgt mlm tuh, dah le mkn punya la byk.. sampaikan ida (GB) suruh aku drive keta mercedes benz nye balik cyberia, sibbaik ler aku terrer bawak benz. sampai kat condo tu ntah pkul brape, dekat2 3pagi kot.. kena tahan plak dgn mohamad (aiseymen, apehal plak dia dgn mai dok gaduh mlm2 buta nih). terpaksa la layan dia kejap kat luar b4 aku, lina & ida dpt masuk bilik. masuk2 je bilik, aku mandi n terus tido.

the next day plak, konon2 nye cadang nk ke sunway lagoon dry park laa.. tp last2 kitorang (yat, ida & mohamad x ikut) bercadang nak ke melaka, tapau mcd mamam dlm keta while on the way to seremban dulu. we all stop kat seremban Terminal 1 dulu sbb the girls nk beli slipar rm10 (yer, mmg itu jer la tujuan stop kat seremban). pastu kitorang pun gi ler jumpa parents ida (GB) sambil tunggu keta2 dibasuh kat workshop bapaknye. pastu kitorang drive escort beramai2 ke umah nenek ida (GB).. jauh dr pekan, tp aman damai.. siap ada monyet (si Jambul), ayam2, kura2 (yg rupa2nya dah k.o, cian dia). parents ida bz so they left us with nenek ida, peramah orgnye, loghat plak cam arwah atuk aku, so aku paham gak ape yg dia ckp. jamu kitorang dgn kuih2 kampung (aduss sedap gile kuih2 kampung ni!), pastu borak mcm2 aihh.. sronok dgr, walaupun aku terbayang plak kat arwah atuk aku.. sembang pun lebih kurang, but xpe lah.. at least she reminded of my happy memories with arwah atukku :)

lepas maghrib, kitorang gi jemput a few other friends (farhan & his girl friend) somewhere dekat2 dgn mmu melaka.. farhan (salam kenal2 yer) bawak kitorang mkn at this big special seafood place. we all ordered sweet sour fish, udang, sotong gorg tepung, and ketam masak pedas.. 2 jugs of orange juice.. and 2 plates of otak2. in the end, semua giler kenyang.. aku pun volunteer drive keta ida balik ke cyberjaya sbb aku tau dia x larat nk drive. on the way tuh, kitorang berhenti kat tepi highway nk beli buah2an sket dgn sagu (mai siap pilih kaler pembalut lg).. then baru ler we all head back. dlm keta tu, comel je aku tgk ida dgn mai tidoq.. lina plak teman aku borak2 sambil dgr lagu2 dlm keta juz to keep me awake :)

sampai je kat condo tuh, aku terus cucuk digicam aku, transfer pics2 bday kat laptop aku (oh yea, aku lupa bgtau, aku bawak laptop aku turun kl kali ni).. passing2 file kat thumbdrive lina dgn mai, pastu baru ler aku mandi2 n borak2 sblom tido.

the nxt day plak.. mai ajak ida, lina, dan aku gi umah aunty nye kat subang. adik mai, munir, jemput kitorang dgn keta kancil. sampai je kat umah aunty mai, ramai btol relatives ada time tu. sibbaik ler dpt makan sbb aku takut nnt bila aku lapar bila naik bas balik alor star. lepak sana smpai pkul 6ptg, pastu the girls drop aku kat komuter subang at 6.30pm. naik gi kl sentral, pastu naik lrt ke stesen pasar seni, then jln kaki plak ke pudu. bas bertolak pkul 8.30mlm, smpai alor star 2.30pagi.. selamat pulang ke umah tepat 3pagi dgn naik teksi sapu (rm10 jer).

masuk je umah, aku terus gi dapur, mamam nasi dgn lauk apa yg ader, tgk vcd sambil tunggu subuh.. lepas subuh jer, aku smayang jap, hantar adik aku gi skolah, and then baru le aku tido. *huaarrgghh~*


ME, Lina, Nurul, Ida (cik gigi besi), Yat, Mai, dan Ida..
[ click the image for the full-size. ]

the 1st time i cried in my dreams..

i went to bed at 4am, after a long night's chat with a few friends. it seems to me that i'm getting terrible at my sleeping habits, but since i got addicted to sleep late, sometimes so late i can even send my sis to school in the morning and then only i go to bed.

anyway, my dream took place somewhere in peaceful kl. in the dream, i wore exactly what i wore before i went to bed.. green camo tshirt, camel active's cargo pants, denim converse, and my black cap. i was walking from a hill-side town house area heading for the next bus stop when suddenly i bumped into a small lil' boy, 7 years old. How do i know he was 7 years old?

He was ME, when i was 7 years old.

"Why are you doing this to me?" asked the boy in a disturbing manner.
"Do what? I didn't do anything to you.. but.. how can u be here when I'm already here?" i replied his question with my own uncertainty.

"It doesn't matter whether we're rite here together or not, but why must you live your life this way.. easy-going and reckless, have u ever thought about being someone useful? Have u ever cared about yourself? Have u ever cared about ME?" he asked while his eyes began to wet.

"I'm sorry, I really am.. but things haven't turned out the way I expected. Please don't cry, I'm not a bad person.. I'm trying my hardest and my best to achieve my goals in life, but it's not as easy as it seems.." i replied in the calmest way i could, but in the end i had to take my handkerchief to wipe off his tears.

"Dah, dah.. jgn nangis ok? Bas dah sampai, jom naik sama2. I'll follow u wherever u wana go.." as i pulled him into the bus, and we set at the back row. He sat beside me, in sorrows, disappointed and depressed. Not a single joke can make him laugh, not even the most delicious cake intimidates him at all.. for he has lost faith in life the moment he saw me a few minutes ago.

"Adik, abg sedar kenapa adik sedih.. tp adik kena tabah hati, sabar dgn qada' dan qadar ilahi, percayalah ckp abg. Abg sendiri dah menempuhi pelbagai dugaan drp tuhan sendiri, yg pahit seketika mahupun yg pedih selamanya.. Di masa depan kelak nanti, adik akan mempunyai seorg kekasih yg nyata di dlm hati adik, adik mmg sayang sgt kat dia dan adik sanggup buat apa saja utk dia, tp setelah lama bersama dgn dia.. suatu hari nanti dia akan meninggalkan adik utk org lain.. di situ adik akan mula melalui saat2 pahit derita hidup, kehilangan seorg yg dicintai.." i told him as i myself began to feel a bit sad.

"Abg syg lg kat dia ke?" he asked me.

"Masih lg adik, tp jgn jadikan kegagalan itu punca kita tidak meneruskan hidup. Abg percaya, apabila tuhan menarik sesuatu drp kita, nescaya tuhan akan turunkan sesuatu jgn berlipat ganda lg baik utk kita di masa hadapan, insya' Allah.." i replied to him as i hugged him, lean him against me.

"Adik tak nak lah kawan dgn dia.. dia buat jahat kat abg.." he said in a manja way.

"Hehe, adik adik.. nnt adik akan paham. Anyway, adik syg kat mama kan? Adik tau kan mama mmg syg sgt kat adik sbb adik la satu2nya anak laki mama.."

"Mestilah syg, mama baik sgt.. dia slalu jaga adik, semua org ckp mama bg adik jadik hensem kat skolah.." as he smiled and began to feel a lil' bit happy.

"Adik, abg nak pesan pada adik.. tlg jaga mama elok2. Abg dgn adik pun tau kan, mama seorg yg rajin buat keje kat umah. Tapi kan adik, ckp sama mama jgn buat keje byk sgt, doktor ada bgtau abg yg marah nih ada darah tinggi.. dan adik jgn sedih bila abg bgtau yg.. nnt di masa depan, mama kena heart attack.. tp alhamdulillah, mama diselamatkan oleh doktor2 kat hospital.."

"Mama masuk hospital?!! Mama nnt nak tinggalkan adik ke??!" suddenly he began to cry again..

"Tak tak, dlm dunia abg.. mama masih ada, tp mama letih sgt. Adik kena slalu tlg mama ok? Janji dgn abg tau.. adik gi skolah belajar rajin2, tlg mama kat umah selalu, dan jgn bagi mama marah.. jgn lawan sekali pun apa yg mama ckp ok?"

"Ok abg, adik janji.. tp abg pun kena janji dgn adik tau.." he looked at me straight in the eyes, and made a deal..

"Janji apa adik?"

"Abg jgn main2 bila dah tua, abg pergi la carik keje atau study balik betul2.. adik tgk abg nih mcm tak serious dlm hidup. Abg tak syg adik ke? Adik sedih kalau tgk nnt adik membesar jd mcm abg skarang.." he was a bit mad but he meant every word he said.

As soon as we set the deal, the bus stopped. To my surprise, it stopped right in front of my old house back in Petaling Jaya. The old cars are still there, the swing is still new, and my 7th bday present skateboard is already there by the shoe rack..

"Adik balik dulu, abg.. adik janji akn jaga mama elok2.. abg promise dgn adik td, ok?" as he stepped down from the bus and waved goodbye.

"Abg janji adik, abg janji.."

And there goes my dream, perfectly ended to the sound of my alarm clock at 9am. The room was very cold. i switched off my air-cond, i can see the day was already bright from my windows, i yawned for the day and my hands began to clear my eyes.. i felt damped spot on my pillow and tear drops on my cheeks. it was the 1st time in my life, that..

I cried in my dream.