[ http://futra.blogspot.com ]: July 2004

Broken - by Seether feat. Amy Lee

Another bad day..

Pagi2 lagi dah ada org f*ck up my day. Just imagine.. someone yg miserably broke ur heart, caused a lot of pain, did massive damages to ur life.. ada nerve to sms and ask me whether I still have my dad's law book for her to buy. CAN U BELIEVE THAT? I mean, memang dah lama berdamai.. tapi setelah sekian lama x contact, the first time was about nak beli books from dad. No 'how are you' or 'how's life'.. alih2 terus about her studies. Dah la tak singgah during my mom was in hospital sampai la my mom dah boleh stay at home skarang nih, masa kat Alor Setar pun jumpa everyone of her friends but not me. Aku terus reply message dia, "PI BELI SENDIRI". Pastu besa lah, dia emo, and SMS aku ntah apa2. I just deleted them, I don't give a shit anyway. Oh, damn it.. what a way to start my day.

Tengahari plak, another shit happens. It was dark at 2pm and it might be raining, so it means aku kena masuk skolah and amik adik aku rather than tunggu kat luar tepi skolah. Dah masuk skolah, and I saw my lil' sis, I horned the car many times.. I even yelled but she juz didn't realise or even care juz to toleh ke belakang for a second. So, she walked all the way kuar skolah while I got stuck in the school since penuh dgn keta2 dok tunggu for their children. Then, finally dpt kuar skolah.. I went to the usual place I wait for her, she wasn't there pulak. But I just parked there. Then, I saw her coming by from the back. She opened the rear door and dropped her bag and books and WHAAMM!! "Pehal tutup pintu kuat sangat nih?!" I raised my voice. "Kawan adik ckp abg tunggu kat dalam, adik pun pi patah balik.. pastu, nampak plak abang kuar skolah, adik pun kuar balik" she replied dgn muka marah. "Ye lah, abang dah horn byk kali, jerit macam org gila.. bukannya nak pandang blakang sat pun, satu skolah boleh dgq tapi adik buat bodo jaa.." I added some more. "Watpe masuk dalam, bukannye hujan, cuma gelap jer.. penat adik bawak buku byk tau!" adik aku marah balik. "Abang kesian sebab tuh masuk skolah! Mana la nak tau gelap2 tapi tak hujan!" I yelled back at her in the car.

Sampai jer umah, dia kuar keta and WHAAMM!! One more time dia slam my car door, damn it! Dalam rumah plak.. being the childish she is, merajuk kat parents. Sempat gak jerit kat aku again, tapi aku buat pekak. Aku just sat down in the kitchen, makan sorang2. And adik aku macam besa.. balik2 skolah, terus masuk bilik, kunci pintu, and then ntah buat apa sampai pkul 4pm baru kuar bilik nak makan. Lantak la dia, aku memang sakit hati sangat hari nih.

It's just one of those days
Where you don't wanna wake up
Everything is fucked and everybody sucks
You don't really know why
But you wanna justify
Ripping someone's head off

-Limp Bizkit 'Break Stuff'-

Sawadikaap.. Welcome to Thailand..

Hehe, yaarshh.. juz came back from Bukit Kayu Hitam. As usual, shopping lah.. what else duty free shop

. Adik aku dpt long khakis-coloured purse, mom bought a nice tempayan for da garden, dad bought nothing but LOTS of can drinks and some snacks - for tomorrow's final match of Euro 2004, Portugal vs Greece. Haha, even I bought some cheddar cheese nachos for da match.. makan keropok

nyummeee!! Mom also grabbed her fav biscuits, the Sultana. My adik pun macam besa, cannot resist chocolate candys. Yeah, we didn't spend much like we used to since tak byk kedai bukak.. maybe sebab 1st saturday of the month kot. Anyway, takkan pi jauh2 pulang dgn tangan kosong kan? So, akhirnya.. tadaaaa!! I got this free-sized black 'Fear Factor' tshirt siot! RM18, but after bargain -> RM14.. boley la tuh. Aku kasik RM15, singgit tuh aku halal la.. kasik mamat tuh duit lebey kot2 la dia nak beli fruits or rokok dah sronok, kasi pi laa..

. And now, aku nak mandi coz it's damn hot in here.. ciao!

I feel good.. I feel so damn good..

Lepas je balik from Friday prayers, aku teman ayahku bersantap di dapur. Abih jer makan, dad buat keje on his pc.. aku pun sambung main game Spiderman2 kat PS2 aku. Later at 3:30pm, the '10-day-chinese-man' datang nak mai amik grandfather clock umah aku sebab engine mechanism dia rosak - one of the gears tak functioning. So, macam besa.. "saya kena angkat ini jam bawak balik kasi lepair.. saya memang charge customer saya, standard RM280 utk apa2 yg losak.. dan dlm masa 10 hali, lu buley angkat balik.. saya call sama encik". Hmmm, patut ler my mom kata he's the '10-day-chinese-man' pun the 10-day-apek

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Menyapu sawang.. cupboard bawah aircond tu kena alih..

Mengecat dinding putih dgn cat kaler putih..

Right after apek tuh blah, aku tolong mak aku buang sawang2 labah2 kat tempat letak keta. Tinggi gak atap garage umah aku.. gayat jugak aku nih. Sapu punya sapu, skejap je dah settle. Then, angkat cupboard hitam kat garage yg dah buruk letak kat stor. Aiyarrkkk!! Stor tuh penuh sawang2 labah2.. geli sangat2, esp bila ntah camne terlekat kat muka yuck!!!

. Tiba2 plak, mom suruh cat dinding keliling garage yg mana patut.., "cover la spot2 yg kotor, bekas2 cat lama yg dah pecah tuh, and don't forget.. bawah aircond". Heh, aku pun menurut perintah.. letih gak mengecat nih, eventhough pakai roller. "Lepas dah siap, tolong dad sapu sampah and teman mama gi buang sampah tau.." my mom menambah lagi. Bab2 sapu nih leceh sket, habuq merata2.. dah la cheq nih sensitive to dust. Takpe, bedal jer.. last2, abih gak another keje.

My dad tgh cat pasu lama, ada logo Mistubishi tuh!

4 plastic bags penuh dgn sampah, and some old newspapers.

Pastu, amik la 4 plastik sampah yg besar.. sumbat la macam2 benda. 1 of them penuh dgn toys lama yg dah old and broken, 1 more penuh dgn daun2 and rumput2 kering kat garden, 1 more penuh dgn sampah2 seperti plastik bags and paper2 iklan bodo yg slalu posmen selit kat pintu pagar, and the last plastic bag penuh dgn tin2 dan botol2 pelincir kosong. Sumbat kesemua plastic bags tuh dlm pajero mak aku, including old newspapers yg dah berhabuq akibat renovation kat umah aku recently. Mom drove to tempat buang sampah, aku pun unload those garbage.. buang kat situ.. the same spot yg aku pernah buang kittens (total of 13.. 1st time buang 8, last time buang 5) yg penuh diberanakan di umah aku tapi si ibunyer menghilangkan diri. Ingat umah cheq nih umah anak yatim kucing kaa?! issh issh isshhh..

'Garage' yg selesai dicuci..

Keretaku yg telah dibasuh.

Balik jer umah, terus capai hose.. and basuh lantai garage. Mom did the spraying, aku yg scrubbed and swept the floor. And then, alang2 dah pegang hose.. aku pun basuh keta aku (basuh je, malas nak cuci sebab umah sebelah dok renovate.. esok lusa kotor gak!). Abih je basuh, mcm besa lah.. aku mendetourkan diri aku ke gerai apek dpn skolah lama utk layan aku nye favourite jambu! Muehheheh.. tapi aduhss, disebabkan aku mai dah dekat 7:30pm.., "hah, young man.. semua sulah abihh.. tinggai ayaq sirap dgn lei chi kang saja" apek tuh sahut aku sejurus aku tiba dgn senyuman yg penuh keciwa. "Takpe la uncle, lei chi kang kita minum duluuu...

pun jadik lah" pesanku to apek. One glass of cool refreshing LCK, aku pun gerak pulang ke rumah. Nak mandi terus tapi adik aku dok guna bilik air, so aku drop by sini dulu.

Memang aku penat tired

, tapi aku rasa cukup lega dan berpuas hati.. kerna telah meluangkan masa dgn family. Today, aku telah meng'spring-cleaning'kan outside rumahku.. hooray!!

It's 5am.. and I can't sleep!!!

[Thursday - July 1, 2004] 6:00pm
I went out to town with Pijan today.. grabbed the new Spiderman2 PS2 game, and some VCDs - Garfield, and MTV Jackass 2 (not really the sequel). Then, went to the stadium and had our drinks there. By 7pm, I sent him back on da way home.. but not quite so coz after I dropped him off, I had a detour - to the clinic. Just drop by and had a small checkup, and guess what the doctor said afterwards..

Doc: From the looks of your eyebags pun, I'm certain that you haven't been getting sufficient sleeps.. or your sleeping habit is inappopriate.

Me: Yes (I said in a low confident voice).. I have a hard time sleeping early, usually only after 3 or 4am baru dapat tido.

Doc: If this continues, you might get a worse disorientation.. perhaps a memory flaw tau, nyanyuk so to speak.

Me: Worse? Err.. does this mean I memang dah ada?

Doc: A bit, but this is a normal symptom for growing young adults.. students kan, suka tido lewat. Mmm.. do you smoke?

Me: Oh, I tak smoke, doctor. I used to have an athma problem during childhood.. tapi now alhamdulillah no more.

Doc: That's good, my point exactly. So, don't smoke. It becomes worse if you get disoriented altogether, paham?

Me: Ok ok.. Apa lagi yang doctor nak advise, because I'm in a rush actually.. almost maghrib.

Doc: I think that's all.. and please, try to makan byk.. esp sayur and milk.. or else you might get the anorexic (something)..

Me: Ermm, saya tau saya underweight.. saya memang amik full cream milk 3 glasses per day, doctor.

Doc: Good. So, remember.. sleep early, eat more green, drink more milk, stay away from smoking, and exercise once in a while.

Me: Insya' Allah, thank you doctor. Assalamu'alaikum..

Doc: Wa'alaikumussalam..

Huh, great. Dah ler tak cukup tido, slightly disoriented, tak cukup sayur and kalsium dlm badan, tak cukup exercise, ada plak chances nak anorexia?! Giler lah.. memang pala otak aku dah x dpt tahan sangat. Dok sembang dgn member2 pun boleh blur, cakap pun berterabur, saying unnecessary things, and I've been making inappopriate calls, cepat gelisah, tak bley nak relax, uurrghh.. aku memang nak kena gi tenangkan fikiran these few days. Results plak, aduhhh.. bila la hang nak kuaq online nih. Kata nak kuar last weekend, tak kuar. Kata weekdays, tak kuar gak. Nih dah July, still tak kuar.

And when da hell am I gonna start my practical?!!! Cina kedai pc nih cakap je nak call and confirm, tapi dah sminggu tak call. Cinabeng nyer apek!!!